I know it has been some time since I have posted and it seems like one day I am here and the next day I disappear, but trust me I am still here even when it seems like I am not and I have a very good reason for my disappearance.
My love it and hate it computer, once again decided to quit working on me. I swear over the last few years my computer seems to have a love and hate relationship with me. Talk about frustrating. So once again it crashed on me and it seems like every time I get going on my projects, it decides to crash.
I thought I was lucky this time because I found someone who knew someone who was supposed to be really good at fixing computers and at a really good price as well, so my boyfriend and I decided to give him a try. He even made house calls and came here to work his magic on it.
It didn't seem to take him very long at all and he said it was fixed and when I asked him if he saved all of my old stuff, he says oh, did you want to save it. I started crying because I had almost finished my book Divine Diva Inspiration that I am self publishing as well had 3 or 4 other book projects that I planned to finish after my Divine Diva Inspiration book.
He looked like he felt bad and told me that he would look for a recovery program and come back another time and try to recover all of my documents if he could. But having had my Dad do work on my computer before he moved, I knew that there was a process to saving everything when you are fixing a computer and this guy I saw just flat out wiped it all clean.
It was about a month before he came back to fix it and he also brought me another disk drive that he said I could save everything on there and if the computer ever decided to crash, I would still have everything. But as I feared, he said he could not recover anything and went on his merry way.
I was so upset and angry about this and to make matters worse, my computer only worked for about a month after I let this guy work on it, and then once again it crashed. So I had to now find someone else who really knew what the heck they were doing to fix it and try this again.
This time when I took the computer to get it fixed, I was told that the previous guy who brought me another hard drive to use did not even hook it up because it was broken and not only that, now my hard drive I had was broken as well, so I had to get a new hard drive and everything redone on this computer and had I known the first guy was going to do this to me, I could have not wasted any money on him and just paid the new guy to fix it and it would not have cost as much.
Every great dream begins with a dreamer. Always remember, you have within you the strength, the patience, and the passion to reach for the stars to change the world. Harriet TubmanI shed so many tears over this because I had so much work on my books and now it a moment, it was all gone! Divine Diva Inspiration is a book of interviews I have done with successful career women and it's not like I can just rewrite the interviews as if it was just a story I would need to start over. This meant that I would have to tell each woman that I had interviewed what happened and get the interviews all over again.
I have had several set backs over the past few years and I was beginning to wonder if the universe was trying to tell me something, and wondered should I just give up on my dreams? But then I also thought if I really do give up on my dreams, then what will I do? Could I live the rest of my life with no dreams? Could you live your life with no dreams?I really had to think about this because these setbacks and frustration caused me so much heartache, but I am also not one who just gives up and quits either on the things that are important to me.
As I thought about all of this, I remembered how and why I decided that I wanted to be a writer and I set an intention many years ago to touch as many lives as I can with my writing. I also realized I was given my gifts and talents from God and if I decided to not use them and just give up on my dreams, what would he think of me? I believe we are all given special skills, talents and gifts and it is our job to discover them and share them with the world.
It sucks for sure to start over on everything I have ever written, but I know deep inside of me if I just gave up on my dreams, I would not live the life God intended for me to live. I also know that if I give up on my dreams, my life would not have meaning.
I think God knows what he is doing and maybe the timing was not right for my projects and I have even found a few positive things during all of this. If I did not have computer problems and would have finished my book, I would not have the option to interview new fabulous women that I have been making connections with recently, so now I can feature even more Divine Diva's in my book which is great.
I have also not been using my blog here very much as you can tell, and I plan on doing allot more blogging. I have also added a new dream to my list and that is doing book reviews. I used to do them for a website a few years back and I am going to do them again. I have learned that there are millions of people now using self publishing as an option like I am, and they are in great need of book reviews to get their book seen and read by more people. I will be adding some information here when I get going on it.
I know this is a long post, but I hope you read it all and remember just because you experience setbacks on the way to living the life you dream of, it doesn't mean you should give up on your dreams. God put those dreams in your heart for a reason and you never know, maybe you will think of ways to add to and expand your dreams like I am.
How do you handle setbacks? Please free to post your comments on this.
Remember, it's never to late to start living the life you dream of. Anything is possible if you believe it is.
Always Remember that you are Beautiful, Strong, Powerful, Fearless, Amazing, Divine, and most important of all YOU ARE ENOUGH! Divine Diva Donna